Why this, now?

Blogging has been a way for me to get things out of my chest and move on. I have always been the kind of person that does things but doesn't advertise them. In a way, I am under representing myself.
Even with this attitude, I have constantly evolved in my career. Moved from web developer to anti-piracy developer. Then moved to project management and decided to stay agile to it. Tried Scrum master and when I was thinking that maybe Product owner would be my next move, I landed on a position that I didn't think I could do. Not that I didn't have the capability for it, but because of my self under evaluation. It came slow to me. First someone introduced me with the idea of being an hands on agile coach, work with a team that had been trained to move to agile but was struggling to remain so. They were fascinated when I asked "Are you Wagile?", meaning Waterfall in small Agile iterations, something they were not able to put together in one word to explain their pain. But at that time, I was at "I can't do it" step.

And then later on, when I was warmed up with the idea and I had moved to "I can do it" step, I accepted to start a job as QMO Analyst, which in simple words means Agile coach. I was that pumped up guy you see going up the "I will do it" step, all full of energy and ideas!
Instead of moving one more step ahead and start  jumping up and down with joy, I am finding myself going back and forth in the steps between "How do I do it?" and "Yes, I did this one!!"

I remember that once, when I was thinking to move from development to project management,  Larry Philps, an IT director that happen to be one of the smartest men I know, asked me out of the blue: "So, what do you want to be when you grow up? :))) A developer? A project manager? A people manager? :)))". I was over 30 but it was the first time I actually found myself thinking about it. Since then, I ask myself this question all the time. When I am on an emotional or professional crossroad, I sit down and ask : "Self, what do you want to be when you grow up?". And that helps me choose a path.

Everything I am learning during these steps, is helping me to grow wise, not just professionally, but also as a Humanoid in this planet. My journey has already started. Hop on board with me if you want to hear what I learn or if you can help me with advise!

ALLLLL AAAAABooooooaaaaardddd!